Tuesday, May 17, 2011



Are you in love with someone?
Do you have a crush on someone?
Do they know?
Could you tell them?
Are you THAT brave?

It's a risk.  It could flop. It could fly.  Or maybe it might just make you smile, . . . or cry.

Do you know them?
Do they know you?
Are they a stranger? or a friend?
When will you see them?
How will they know?

That inside your heart you've made room for them, can you let the twinkle in your eye show?

Are you hidden?
Do your feelings flow?
Is it a bumpy ride or smooth sailing the go?
If you don't risk it how will you know?
Maybe you'll hear a resounding NO.
Or a whisper of yes, where the butterflies can return home.

Are you in love? How do you know? Its the beat of your heart that makes clear a foggy road.
So stand up inside.  Open up wide.  You're about to jump ship and see whats on the other side!

Monday, May 16, 2011

Are the roots exposed?

"My heart is wide open in my eyes, to this I see truth."

When you think of a plant you think about its beautiful flowers, or leaves or the fragrance it gives off, the fruit that it yields, what you don't often think about are the roots of that plant.  They are unseen, hidden, underground, they are the reason the plant has life and can stand.

My friend challenged me recently, 

"How visible are your roots?"

This meant, How vulnerable are you in your life, your relationships? How open is your heart to those around you? How much do you let others see of you? and who you really are? 

You see Jesus is talking to me about Intimacy with him and isn't this what intimacy looks like, vulnerable, open, in love, safe and taking that intimacy to others and isn't that what it looks like vulnerable, open, in love and safe? 

So this is my challenge again and further more, 
celebrate intimacy and expose the roots!

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Sunday, May 8, 2011



"Light fills this temple, its home to a King. 
Light fills this temple, it loves from within.
Light fills this temple, it choose the righteous one.  

Light fills this temple, the kingdom has come."

I was at a friends house recently and we were out in her garden picking vegetables.  She picked this amazing eggplant.  When her mum got home she saw the eggplant and how amazing it had grown and then right up the top near the stalk she saw a little hole and she said something that has come back to me a couple of times, 

"If the bugs get in they can wreck havoc and destruction on the inside."

It made me think of life.  On the outside we may appear to be perfect clean vessels, grown strong and healthy, rich in colour and vibrancy, but only the Father knows our true thoughts, only the father knows the true state of our internal being.
Sometimes our insides are riddled with  "bugs", negative thoughts, jealousy, comparison, judgement, dishonor, greed, fear, anxiety, disbelief, control, the list could go on.  We may be harbouring unforgiveness or sadness, we may be living defeated or downcast, we may have locked the door on our internal world and thrown away the key.  

Jesus says, " . . . whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things . . . " 

"Do you want to BE clean or do you want to APPEAR clean?"

What is your source of life? How does life enter your vessel? Can the "bugs" get in at your source of life?  Theres that saying, "What you surround yourself with is what you become".  

I know for me at times, I struggle with jealousy, comparison, fear and anxiety.  I want my vessel to be clean,  I want my inside to match my outside and my outside to match my inside.

This is what I know . . . 
  • We are fearfully and wonderfully made
  • I am a Queen
  • God knew my innermost parts from the beginning of creation
  • Created in the image of God
  • We have courage
  • My body is the temple of the Holy Spirit
  • Jesus came so we have life and life in abundance
  • We are loved unconditionally with an overwhelming love, we can't ever change that
Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Gentleness, Faithfulness and Self Control are alive in me because Jesus is alive in me.  These are not qualities I hope to have one day, these are who I am already because I am a daughter of the King.  My dad is the King of the universe, I have everything I need in him, he knows my innermost thoughts and the state of my being and loves me unconditionally and calls me lovely.  My dad can squash mountains and create heaven and earth, he can destroy an army with one man, or provide for thousands with a few fish and loaves of bread, nothing is impossible which means I am safe and secure, my hope abounds.

If I am rotten inside, I am restored
If I am broken, I am made whole
If I am hopeless, I have he hope of God
If I am afraid, I have Shalom

So if the fruit looks great on the outside and you open it up and finds its rotten and something has been wrecking havoc on the inside.  STOP! Look at the fruit and go straight back to the tree.  If your source is good then the tree will be strong.  Let the seeds rest at the feet of the tree and you will find soon enough the old will pass away and that new life will spring forth.  

"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is the tree of life."

Jesus you are my source, you are my life, you bring new life to the old rotten places, you are my friend and my hope.

 11 One who loves a pure heart and who speaks with grace 

   will have the king for a friend.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Ever Wonder. Ask questions and live into the answers.

What do you pack to pursue a dream and 
what do you leave behind?

What do I dream about? What is my destiny? I think that is the first question with a quote like this . . . 
        I dream about being a wife and a mother, cooking and nurturing mine and others bodies, being a successful Naturopath, a releaser of Jesus in strength and power to see peoples lives transformed, making beautiful clothes, being creative, leading others into intimacy and revelation with Jesus.

So what do I pack to pursue these dreams?
- A wife : well a husband would help, but I can continue to learn to honor men and respect them, I can learn from wives that inspire me, I can work on any relationship I already have in my life now, I can be declaring the promises of God over my marriage . . . so I'll take a humble heart, a passionate heart and a free heart (help me Jesus), I'll leave behind fear, comparison, judgement and jealousy.
- A mother : this one I'm just excited about so I'll take that, great excitement and anticipation
- Cooking and nurturing the body : okay . . . so I feel like for the past few weeks I have eaten bread, pasta and chocolate, so I most certainly can pursue this one a lot better.  I'll take some self respect for my body and what I'm putting into it, I'll leave behind a lazy / lethargic attitude towards health, I'll take some passion to share health with others.
- Being a successful naturopath : I'll take a committed mindset to learn, and God given cognition enhancement, I'll take a willing and an open heart, I'll take the Holy Spirit and his wisdom in this area, I'll take a peaceful mind that doesn't tire of learning, I won't take procrastination, or tiredness
- A releaser of Jesus : I will look to him when I am around people and when I am alone, I'll take intimacy, secret place, love beyond imagination, sensitivity and obedience to the spirit, I will take a heart of courage and risk, I'll leave behind striving, my own works, timidity.
- Making beautiful clothes and being creative : i will JUST DO IT :) , leave behind NOT DOING IT :)
- Intimacy and revelation : sensitivity and relationship with God, Jesus and Holy Spirit, this I will take and their light and off I will go :)

Ahhhs it's all part of the adventure :) 

I've been on a few hikes lately and I am learning each hike what to pack and what to leave behind and what to take just because you want it even if it will make the pack heavier.  The first big hike I went on I took all the wrong stuff, wrong pack, wrong food, too much 'stuff' and my back and bones suffered but I still had a great time.  The next hike I went on I took a great pack, less food and the right food, less clothes but I took a pillow :) best decision of my life and still had a great time.  We live and we learn and we take joy with us in the ups and downs and bruises and blisters.

Love God. Love Life. Love Now.
Take Risks.  Make Mistakes.  
God Loves it all :)

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Ever Wonder. Ask questions and live into the answers.

 If you think your life is hard, what are you comparing it to?

Do you ever have one of those moments where you feel like you get a smack in the face of perspective and the main though that goes through your head is, "... what on earth have I been complaining about, my life is great."

Well my life is great.  I have
- a home (warm, dry, loving, free, safe, my own)
- a family
- a car ( well it's my mums but I can still drive it)
- amazing friends
- opportunity to study and learn
- a great church
- I have God.  that in itself should provide an answer for any complaint I have

Today my life was blessed my

- working at my great job
- being told my a client that I was very efficient
- talking to one of the guys I work with about how he wants to treat a young girl with MS for free because thats the least he can do for someone that is bed ridden.  Was so encouraged by his heart.
- there was amazing sunshine today.
- took my library books back and they had the book i needed
- got a great park
- got to drive in the city and look at the houses and the ocean which i love
- got to visit with my cousins that have just moved back from Scotland
- got to talk to my sister. Love her.
- sung really loud in the car on the way home
- enjoyed my freshly cut hair (not a normal feeling for me)

A quote that I think is cute, found it the other day

A form of amnesia when a girl forgets there are 1.2 billion other guys in the world.